Ramblings on Tree Posing at Bus Stops and Meditation and Sadness or is it Depression..? and on being a beached whale in the fight against the barbaric blues…

So, I’m still on the depression theme but trying to make headway. I signed up to the HeadSpace app again some months ago after a long break and quickly started the Depression Pack - that was March, I'm on session 9 (of 30) four months later which averages at about 1 and  three quarter meditation… Continue reading Ramblings on Tree Posing at Bus Stops and Meditation and Sadness or is it Depression..? and on being a beached whale in the fight against the barbaric blues…

Sneaking popcorn into the cinema :/

  On the last occasion I smuggled popcorn into the cinema it was my daughters birthday and we were going to see Black Panther. It was so good. Being a woman of slender means I decided to buy a few bags of £1 popcorn and a few bottles of cheap  pop to save on the… Continue reading Sneaking popcorn into the cinema :/

When your mind is a war zone

trying to define mental anguish. I can only say there’s an invisible war zone in your own head and the smallest things are threatening and the smallest things trigger irrational anxiety. When in this zone it’s so strange to look about you and see people behaving so normally and relaxed and this is how the… Continue reading When your mind is a war zone

The Blues

  All my life, yes actually (I have to double check that) but really, most of my life I’ve seesawed between feeling fine and feeling sodden. Sodden with a kind of all consuming sadness that is. For example, one day in my present life I can be cycling along taking in sight, sound and humanity… Continue reading The Blues

At the Crossroads

I’m still damn blue. No amount of omega 3 oil, vitamin c, or any of it seems to be removing my nature of cyclothymic sadness. I've been tracking days to see a pattern and it’s pretty much three weeks of melancholic misery followed by one week of feeling pretty good and forgetting about life, death,… Continue reading At the Crossroads

Transience of words: in blog writing

I've read a few blogs about blogging and how good it is to blog and things like that. I wanted to blog because I sometimes really need to write and I sometimes really like to. It's a nice way to see your words and ideas formatted on a tidy page and if anyone reads it… Continue reading Transience of words: in blog writing

Motherhood and the need to be Alone

It is a rare occasion that I am alone and able to relish the delights of it. Motherhood is an odd one. It can come into your life when you are perhaps quite young; I was a pregnant 19 year old and gave birth a few weeks after my 20th birthday. Whatever age, it's all… Continue reading Motherhood and the need to be Alone